So of course it's minutes to midnight, and while I've spent ALL DAY creating: I'm designing a new game, and wrote fully, and storyboarded out the first scene in a documentary about community, and crafted on a paper floor at an art space, and, and ... I can create all day long, and often do, but I made this dare very deliberately, it's to SHARE from the deep for 100 days cuz it is a pretty cozy habit for me to hoard content, and lordy if I don't love a good nudge to shift a momentum that's not working.
Today I am 11 days into this and I'm learning so much neat stuff about deep living!
I'm saying neat cuz I'm feeling tired and woozy and flippant.
Neato things about living deeply:
More fully now than ever I get that the level of depth and intimacy I'm currently experiencing in my relationships is all in my court.
Holy shizer is it hard to remember this. I literally forget it every other second. It's SO EASY for me to forget that I'm having a hard time finishing this sentence. Ok, that joke is never gonna work.
This feels pretty exciting to me right now.
I remember reading Pam Grout's advice to write on a paper something to the extent of "today I'm am going to encounter the coolest most thrilling and magical shit" and I felt a little doubtful that I could truly believe or engage that. Being on this depth mission is taking me a long way towards believing that I can encounter cool thrilling shit often. That cool magic is inside everything. It's deep within all of it. And this neato tuning myself to the deep thing I'm doing is unlocking those layers. I wish I had enough experience with video games to make a sensible reference here, something about powering up and going to next level and unlocking secret treasures. Something about winning. Something about feeling more excited to wake up and greet my new day because with the depths of things revealing themselves to me in new ways, I'm curiouser and curiouser. What happens next?
I very genuinely cannot wait to find out.
Love from the deep,