What began as a quiet invitation from a beloved friend has bloomed into a pilgrimage to the church at the top of the world to stand in the face of a brand new rising sun.
Crammed into a Benz, fat with laughing and rain coursing down my face I remembered a few months back, almost dying and then the loneliness. And the grief of having no true friendships at that moment. Everyone seemed far away, but it was actually me who was far away.
By then I had a good ol' habit of discontent going and it spread to my other friends and I found myself saying no to everyone because they all looked like poop through my poop colored glasses I was wearing.
After a while, as is our way, it got so painful and lonely that I cried out for a renewal of my deepest knowingness about friendship, love, intimacy, comrades, soul mates, tribes and then I sat to listen.
What I heard was: love and joy is the point and friendship is where that alchemy most easily lives. I had been stringent about my thoughts in other areas but had never really considered how I was creating my friendships as well and found myself suddenly thirsty to deliberately craft the friendships of legends, so sweet and deep and FUN and nourishing and interesting that we'd have to dawn pilgrimage to the church at the top of the world just to bear the wonderment of it all.
You gotta participate in your own destiny
And I'll tell ya, this river of shared joys is worth paddling to get back into. I paddle by appreciating everyone wonderful drippy drop of these glorious beings who choose me and by imagining wonderful futures together, and by staying deeply present in the time we share and by believing in and supporting their dreams.
I also participate in my destiny of wondrous, extraordinary friendships by not filling my time with partial yesses. And I don't chase people who aren't on my frequency. I don't chase anything actually. I use my time to tend my tone and then revel in who shows up as a match for that.
So, darlings, how's your friendship bonanza? Who's showing up for you now? How much fun are you willing to have with this being alive together thing?